worry-pot

woahh...suddenly i have so much to say...and every thing i want to say has a picture..image object? to project it...but...garh....my drawing skills are killing on me... my hands are getting rusty... my brain is squeeking....and not to mention magenta what? lolz

but yesterday's incident just show me how blind love can really get. or maybe cause its the 1st time something like this is happening to one of my 'so-called friends'. he aint exactly friends since i know him from maple. stays in SG. and has never freakin' see each other before except thank you friendster.

but heck yea..he is a friend. after all , we talk. laugh. gossip. share. scream. bully each other as if we had known each other for not 1 month but a whole decade. freaky sometimes how you can get close to a person so fast and suddenly everything stops. in this case ...hahaha lets just say a GIRL came to his life.

f.y.i. i was always the guy in his life a.k.a his xiong di. he is my girl in my life a.k.a jie mei.

last 47 days (woah...i remembered) my maple character got married. BY FORCE. but it was not a regrettable one cause thanks to this i have known much more people....though yeslar a bit sad case all online people. what happen to real flesh and blood? im still with them...through MSN. o.m.g

anyway...yea...so this fella my char married to..got a bit tooooo carried away by this whole "marriage" thing. its freaky. hello...you dont fall for the person you have never met before in your life, sumore its a characterley!! cannot compare wan. want talk to me bout game relationships?

Boy. have i seen a lot......lets bring back RO shall we? LOL so yea....i had a LIFETIME explaining Game is Game. RL is RL. thou shall not mixed both of this up even though all your senses has gone into the waste paperbasket and all you see is fluffy pink heart shape clouds with candies poking from the ground and singing daffodils....i assume thats what you see la when youre in love.(so the dahsyat right? hahahaha)

thus, we go back to my jiemei.xiong di. i told him to brainwash my 'maple hubby' that this wont go anywhere. theres no such thing as 'see 1stlar' or 'maybe canleh' or 'how you know if you dont try'.....to me it just doesntlarh. yes age does not matters in love. but wth i didnt do anything to make him act this way!! T_T and i think he knowslar...hahahah i very bad wanlor ....thats what they all have been sayinglarh zz not bad okay...you dont make false promises and make the water boil even worse.


and remember that xiong di jiemei...? he was the one with me talking bout game relationships and rl relationships. how these 2 wont work out(usually) and how you should know how to diffrenciate between these 2 worlds... of course im not saying you cannot fall for your online gaming buddy. just that its seldom the 'and so they lived happily ever after' fairy godmothers aint exactly that free with all these keng chau demands girls have these days.

Well..this lill xiong di jiemei FELL for someone in maple. it happened quite long. i just told him that....he falling for his own emotions..or something since your heart and mind will go seperate ways. and despite how strong his 'philosophies' of online r/s were. ahahahahahaha his heart gave way and fell for her.

i thought it was a big infatuation.

he thought it was just a sudden lovebug thing.

she thought nothing was going on.

estee give them a break. people in love yao kuan lei meh si..


kuan ngor si when the guy is 19 and the girl is 25. kuan ngor si when she said that she is a divorcee with 2 children.(if she aint lying to melar) kuan ngor si when he said that he wants to take this real life if he dares and if she wants and dont mind. kuan ngor si that the girl is actually calling him and taking this real life too.( i mean...phone calls worh) kuan ngor si when suddenly they sms me to log in maple to attend thier wedding. kuan ngor si when my 'maple hubby' said 'hes deep in'.

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love is strong. love is keng....when love happens love happens. what happen to all those stand? all those mindsets? all those philosphies? all those....i dont know!!~LOL i dont know. should i laugh at love? or should i be afraid of it?

does it really take all your senses away? its true that love is blind deaf and dumb? how long can real love last? how do you know thats real love? what are all those made up love songs. love poems. love quotes. love everything.

and this is coming from a person who has so much faith in love. omg. whats wrong with me?

izit cause im worried for my friend? worried taht someone will get hurt? izit cause i feel a deja vu playng all over again? izit cause deep down i actually dont approve of all these age barrier relationships? or am i jealous that they are happy?(wth i better not be)

actually why am i worrying so much when its not my freaking problem? who am i to have say in sumones relationship?

good questions. i shall lay this whole thing to peace behind of my head ...wait theres no space in my head. thnk Q dustbin.

it feels like this

some things never change.

maplestory

MapleStory : recommended blog Ojiji

I started on this game quite long ago after quitting Ragnarok totally. I never thought I will succeed in quitting.... I can go on for days doing my assignments and playin at the same time... 4 hours per night for sleeping...and rushing my homework till early morning...how did I do it...I will never know....== cause nowadays if I even spend 1 night playing Maple...until lets sat 5am.. my eyebags can literally welll...call me champion of pandas.

But I got hooked to it again... though Im tryin to lessen ...cause Im supposed to get a job! DARNIT. Feeling useless and not doing anything is the worst thing someone can do. But...hahhahaha: P you have to admit...It was holiday..all I wanted to do was play and yeap..thing happen in the Maple World....Suits the theme Maple Story...hurhur.



I play usually with Lyn -Orrgui . Kun-XiaoKunx .They are the only real life friends. the rest are basically in game known: D This is one of our maple-ing days..BabyRage -kunz..and...typical us talking bout sex...porn shows....virginity...and of course the very contaminated me showing more than shock....==" If God allows my nerves to stretch tat way..tat will be my real life face.



Of course Maple is well known for your creativity in "dressing" your character...if you have money go spend RM24 on the cashcard for 10k cash online and shop till you drop..literelly..since 10k aint enuf you will have to buy more cash cards thus ending up a whole sum of money.

A lot of trends has come up along the way... I ve taken too many print screens to count....such as the one up there is the so called new look....christmas geisha special...hahahahahah but of course the following wins hands down...i was too shocked to even show emotion.



and the most interesting bout Maple...other than the fact its fun.addictive.life sucking.eye bag blacking.meeting youngsters who calls you " lao zha boh". scoldin each other when a fight happens. do stupid things together. yadayadayyada....No. I shall not go furthur cause its the same feelings and emotions if you play online games...sama sjer.If you dont then..actually its good not to start( advice from deep within) though actually I hope u start and join the fun with me hahahahah!!: D

And trust me...everything happens... we know it when STALKERS actually appear in MapleStory..Why....==" cause Lyn has been stalked several times before(why you lucky girl!!!pinches the character) hahahahaha: D okalrh...Lyn really has her assets right!!: D

Thus i present...Lyn's Maple Stalker!!: D(if you happen to read this which cahnces are like -0.00341 %...sorry okay: D If you werent so scary lookin we might have stopped and at least said hi)

cause the first thing i said before he even stalked lyn was" omg..look at that Aqua looking character!"

Well...obviously he started following Lyn and i though it was another of her fren. cause her high school fren DuckieSinz was with us that day. I was like "omg..is he your friend...i just siad he looked aqua"

"no estee...whos tat?"



Duckie Sinz kept saying how he look like "keung gan fan" aaahhahahahaha err....rape stalker? izt? lols: P i was kiddin at 1st when i said it was lyn's stalker...but it went obvious.



Well....the wonders of erm...glue? I walked away from her to prove it..Well...well done!!: D at least he proved me right hahahaha Lyn wanted to die... i must admit though...theres just something bout Lyn's char eyes....alluring huh?*shingshing* nothing beats sze mei's eyebrow though(shhh)

And despite us running...literelly jumping from tree to tree.vein to vein...ropeto rope..ladder to ladder..he still manages to find Lyn....must be her perfume..==" until we could not stand it any longer... It felt like an Aqua following...worst! he looked kiong si ish...and the fact he liked to jump instead of walking aint helping.

DuckieSinz was apparently direct and straight.

"get lost" he says. "lyn's my girlfren"
"i just wanna be her friend" innocent stalker says
"NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!" he hollered

yes...tats all he said....you could have answered "why not?! sharing is caring!"

okay but tat was suckier..hahahahaha: D but our "stalker in shining with shining spear started attacking! GAH!!!!! the horrors!!!!!! NOw i have seen it all...a stranger hitting an innocent guy just to be friends with his "girlfriend"...If maple could kill....tat poor Duckie Sinz....we will have to go for a memorial service...


we started running...and really runing.....i was pressing my arrow keys so hard.....it tot i will need a new keyboard by the time this ordeal was over..it was fun to see...what will happen next... though frusfrating as well....he could have been a gentleman and introed himself nicely and all..i dont know...works well with most girls and most situations right?


And he kept popping out suddnely although we cahnged channels...move maps...relogged...gah!! it was really like stalkinG!!! DArn it... but i guess if he was Brad Wang Lee Hom. everything would be the other way round. hahahahahahahaha: D Lyn will be stalking.



DuckieSinz concluded we would just stay still and pretend AFK. it was hard...i Like moving my character...so i was typing to my other frens talking bout wat is so funny happening at 3am in the mornin.

Well~ it worked... tat hamsap fella.. hahah followed another innocent girl and was never seen again..why? duckiesinz suddenly felt bored without a stalker to make fun of and pay hide and seek decided to find him..obviously...hes gone: P well..it was fun while it lasted.